Friday, October 24, 2014

It starts

I used the 22nd as the "start" of things because it's my youngest daughter's birthday. She seems to be where my health things tend to come from. She busted my chops to get me to "requit" smoking. She was the reason why my wife was on my case to quit in the first place (that whole live until she is an adult thing....so annoying ;-)

Now I am going to try to add her to my reasons for getting back into shape. I am NOT doing it for her. I am NOT trying to get in shape for anyone other than myself. I think that is important. The reason she is another reason is....I want to be able to do things with her while she is still young enough. Her older sisters are moving on with their lives. They don't want to hang out with their old man much anymore....especially the married one. At least with the youngest, I can still ride roller coasters with someone. I am hoping to get down enough so that next season, I can buy a season pass to Six Flags and ride the rides all summer with her.

Don't tell anyone though....it's a surprise.

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Zero Hour

It has been a long time since I have written anything of substance here...I admit it. I guess I had given up on a lot of things. At this point, I don't really remember what I have written about before and at this time....I don't feel like rereading everything. It is time for me to start moving on things again. I had a great week last week (not diet wise....life recharging wise) and I know that it is time. I think that the biggest problem for me was to find the motivation to stick to a new weight management lifestyle. I found it. I am sure that I will get to that in due time but I want to decide how to talk about it. The important thing to say now is that I am back. I am beginning again. I am going to kind of ignore what has happened in the past. I don't think I am going to completely rewrite or reset everything....I don't think that is necessary. I am just thinking in terms of a computerized three finger salute. I am pressing CTL-ALT-DEL on this stuff. I am thinking of this as my Zero Hour. In the comics universe, DC wanted to try to deal with the inconsistencies in it's history by resetting everything. That is my plan right now.

In terms of weight....I weighed myself yesterday and it was 397.4 pounds. I am pretty sure that is down from where I was when last I wrote. Regardless, my plan is to redo all counters and goals. I figure I will still have two goals....long term and a short term based on the 10% thing that Weight Watchers did (don't know if they still do....like I said....I am just starting to "reinvent" things and research them). To make math easy, my short term goal is 40 pounds and I am setting my long term goal at 5 times that or 200. That would take me down to 197 which isn't the recommended weight (according to the charts) but I will worry about that when I get there.

What am I doing? How am I doing it? What has caused all of this?

All great questions that will be answered as we move forward on this journey together. Let's save that all for later. For now....glad to be back and I hope people start reading again. If not, oh well....as long as this does for me what I need it to....I'll be happy.

Monday, April 15, 2013

I wonder if this is the same for everyone?

Last week was a study and pass a test work. I didn't have any "work" (ie. no class or setups needed). I really enjoyed that week. I have to work on a setup this week and teach a night class. I really don't want to. I don't want to work. Now I assume that no one really WANTS to work but I wonder who enjoys their job enough that they look forward to it? How many people would continue to work if they won a lottery or for whatever reason didn't need the money? I know I wouldn't. I might do things that some would consider work but I doubt it.

My other thing sticking in my head today is how does someone actually find a "job" that they love so much, it isn't work? One of these days I would love to be one of those people....IF they really exist.

Sunday, April 14, 2013

I always wonder....

am I better off writing ANYTHING just so I can say I wrote something or should I only write when I have something interesting or useful.

These are the things I waste brain power on.

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Today was a catch up day...

Unfortunately, none of the things that I caught up on were really that important. I caught up on tv...reading...that kind of thing. It was a bit of a lazy day but I think it was useful....or at least that is what I am telling myself. I am debating whether I should try to accomplish something tonight or just call it a day and try to make some headway tomorrow.

There is one thing I wish I could master....I am sitting here right now, way too hungry. I shouldn't be. I ate dinner...even had a dessert. I think the best invention would be a really good hunger control med. I wish I was good at fasting. I think it would make my life much easier. I think it would make many lives easier. I would just digest myself over time.

Wow....that sounds gross saying it that way.

I did a reread....

and I make myself sad. I am a bit (sarcasm) or a mope. I love numeric coincidences and I noticed that since January of 2012, including the post earlier today, I have posted 100 times. Sounds like a good number to me so I started here and read them all. I learned something that I have always known about myself. I am a lazy talker. I have big plans or big ideas but completely lack follow through IF there is no external motivation to finish. Work and projects for any job...no problem. There is money involved. When I have had a girlfriend/wife, there was the, "I want to have sex" concept so NO problem with following up. The problem is I have no internal discipline....or at least that is how it feels. My health, my goals, really anything that I come up with in my head that I want to do seems to peter out at some point. Things tend to last a week or two and then I get bored or distracted and don't stick to it.

That has to change....for so many reasons. The ultimate reason is I am beginning to feel my life being wasted. I remember when I was younger and had so many plans and ideas and dreams. I am no closer to any of them today than I was 30 plus years ago. Don't get me wrong...I know I have done things. I have made accomplishments....just not the ones I wanted to back then and (in the deep recesses of my mind) still want to. There is a triad of things that I want to do to push me in the direction I want to go. I am going to just list them for now....I will probably fill in details in future posts this weekend.

1) Start at least two new blogs for "specialized" info.

2) Really push myself when it comes to my continuing education in the world of computers and technology.

3) The obvious....my health and weight.

I know that there is always the concern that I will bite off more than I can handle but I feel that I need all three of these things to start my life in the direction I want to go. I have always heard the term late bloomer but I have always feared that I was kind of the opposite. I look back to my youth...teens and twenties mainly and it just seems like I was so much more "powerful" or capable back then. I feel like there were so many missed opportunities if I had only DONE something with my skills. Instead, I frittered my time away doing nothing....unless you feel that the first paragraph here.

Here's to me finally blooming.