Friday, November 20, 2015

The biggest problem

I really am kidding myself when I try to convince myself why I have so many problems that I can't seem to get a grip on these days. The reality is, I spent most of my life (say the first 30 to 35 years) getting things too easily. Between my parents "protecting" me from reality (and the repercussions of my own actions) and school being too easy (very few would deny my "book smart" iq's the lack of other "smarts" that is up for debate), I really haven't had to "struggle" to succeed at much. Of course, when the marriage collapsed and then the economic layoff in 09 happened....let's just say things changed. I am not saying that bad things didn't happen to me. I am also not saying that I didn't think things were tough back then. In hindsight, I realize how sheltered and easy things were back then. I just don't seem to have the tools to stick to the fight, so to speak so that I can persevere and ultimately triumph. It just seems like I am too lazy and give up too easily.

Now, how to deal with that is my new issue.

Thursday, November 19, 2015

Working around the rain

I didn't feel like walking in the rain so I did some inside exercises for almost 45 minutes, including some weight lifting. Now my back is sore but things should be back to normal tomorrow. That's right....sticking to it so far.

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

I'm worried

So I tried to walk today. I woke up and the "body check" seemed to report that all systems were go. I did one lap around the block and my knee was beginning to annoy me. I didn't want to keep going and end up hurting myself so I didn't walk for days again so one is all for now. I will make sure that I do one a day minimum and hopefully tomorrow won't be as bad and I can try to go longer. Obviously, I am not going to be able to rely on exercise as much as I'd hoped right now so I am going to have to turn to my eating. I will try to find the right way to take in less and hopefully spur some weight loss. The prayer is that my body will be able to recover as I go down so I don't have to feel so old and broken before I even turn 50.

Matter of fact, anyone who knows of any "physical recovery" stories that they can share, I'd love to read or hear them. I just need to believe that it isn't too late and that I can still have some form of physical life if I get my butt in shape.

Monday, November 16, 2015

Let's catch you up

As I mentioned in my last post I didn't do well after my three mile odyssey. I did a single 3/4 mile lap after that post so I could at least try to loosen things up but I haven't "worked out" since then. I did a bunch of errands on Saturday and as I was moving around, my legs and especially my feet really hurt. I decided to rest things and even on Sunday I was still pretty gimpy. I was going to walk home today from dropping my car off but they couldn't work on it. I realize that for me, exercise alone won't work like it did for the guy in the article I mentioned. I am going to take today as a loss and reevaluate things and see what I do tomorrow. Bear with me and let's try to keep hoping.

Friday, November 13, 2015

Lesson learned

Don't choose to walk for three miles/ an hour when you haven't gone for a long walk in a long time. My legs are killing me. I am going to have to move around a bit (and I have been), I just don't think a long walk is a good idea. I don't think this is an excuse....but we will see.